I didn't finish Nanowrimo with 50k, sadly. My final word count was 40,258. It's disappointing but at least I accomplished something.
Thanksgiving break, aside from that episode with my sister, was pretty good. We gave dad a Blueray player for his birthday and Ellen and I set up the speakers and system with his help. Mom, Ellen, Vicky, and I also went to see The Blind Side. It was a surprisingly good movie. I didn't expect to like it (Sandra Bullock ... something about her just bothers me) but I cried a couple of times and it was better than I thought it would be.
As for like back here in Knoxvegas, I've been busy with various papers and things. I got distracted last night by this show called Hoarders on A&E - God, I love that show. It disgusts me in such a good way. And Intervention. * shiver * I guess I like seeing other people struggle with their problems? D:
Oh well, I've already come to terms with my horrible personness.
Now back to Pokemon (I am so fucking addicted to this game right now :|).
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
tired - Music:People's voices in the class
Just watched Super Size Me on Hulu and it just sort of jump started all these things I've been wanting to do for a while ...
So, on my list of things to do regarding food and health in general ...
o1. Stop eating / moderating fast food. I already don't eat that much fast food, maybe once to twice a week and it's usually a Chick Fil A sandwich. However, couple with that fries and, if it's Wendy's, a frosty ... it's just too much.
o2. Take a cooking class. I want to learn how to cook freaking awesome food and stuff that's relatively healthy! I should be going to the store every day or every other day to get fresh veggies and meat for meals.
o3. When, if I ever have a family, I will cook for them and pack lunches no matter what. I keep thinking about my Italian professor and how she never takes her kids out and that's really what most families should be doing. It's hectic and crazy because life is so busy, but even some spaghetti and sauce wouldn't take that long / be that expensive over eating out.
Anyway, just writing down my thoughts while not doing Nanowrimo (I'm soooo behind).
Word Count: 25,960
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
busy - Music:Oasis - Champagne Supernova | Powered by Last.fm
It's been nice because I've made connections with people that I thought I wouldn't have much in common with. A girl from my chemistry class and I really opened up about shit that's gone down in our lives and we both apparently have the same emotional disorders. It was nice to hear that I'm not alone.
That was the problem with last weekend, I felt so utterly alone. It didn't help that my family was in California having a good time and I was stuck in Knoxville with practically nothing.
...
Still behind on my word count but I'm trying to remedy that right now at a write in at school.
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood: busy
- Music:Alexandre Desplat - Mr. Button | Powered by Last.fm
Also, kittens at Petsmart don't hurt either.
I got a coat, two shirts, and a purse at Old Navy for only $65. Amazing. Everything was on clearance.
Then I went to Bed, Bath, and Beyond and got an egg poacher and a wok. And a knife set, but I'm thinking about returning that
When I was out on the porch a while ago, I just thought about this time next year ... I could have my own apartment - either a studio or one bedroom - and I could have a kitty sleeping on the bed and my birdies hanging from the ceiling
I still gotta ask out Kohl though. Shit, I am running out of time! D:
And I need to study Italian first. :P
- Mood:
okay
Mostly things have been uneventful. Still haven't gotten that date I want and I'm slowly going mad over it. My birdies are still stupid as fuck and have mini heart attacks whenever I turn in their direction ...
I got Windows 7? That's cool.
And Cori's birthday party last weekend was a lot of fun.
And I got to meet some of the other NaNoWriMo people in Knoxville on Thursday at IHOP. We had a big celebration and the Municipal Liaison gave out gifts (a big block of wood -> Writer's Block).
I just have to hope I can keep my head above the water.
Word Count: 883
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood: busy
- Music:Alexandre Desplat - Little Man Oti | Powered by Last.fm
Yesterday was Cori's 21st birthday and I hung out with her at her job and gave her presents. Saturday's the real party, we invited around eight people over to the apartment to get smashed with us. I'll be making the birthday fudge pie. :D
All and all, things are a lot better. Now if only I could get the courage to ask a simple question so I can do some double carbon bonding on the third date ...
(inside joke, SORRY)
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:TeeVee
That seriously made me lol. xD
Then again, I had such a shitty start to the day and it's ended up pretty great. I didn't sleep well last night because of bad dreams and insomnia (probably due to exam anxiety), got all riled up watching the anti-abortion people put up their pictures of photoshopped aborted babies and calling it genocide, taking a chemistry exam that I know I only got 50% on, and then getting sick for some reason (light headed, felt nauseous, it was weird).
Then I lost my cell phone.
I sat through Astronomy lecture wondering what happened to it and so I actually paid attention to what was going on so I got a 100 on the in lecture quiz and answered the professor's questions (nobody ever does and he gets really down about it). I went back to where I thought I lost it and they directed me to the Physics lost and found. Lo and Behold my green Motorola was there!! God bless the soul that turned it in. I would have had such an awful day if it weren't for that.
Now all I've got to do is more planning for a special occasion next week and finish reading The Moonstone for one of my classes.
And watch my birdies play. I think they're finally warming up to me (probably cause I cleaned their cage in the bathroom yesterday and let them fly around). They don't freak out as much when I get close to them. :)
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
hopeful - Music:Jean-Yves Thibaudet - A Postcard to Henry Purcell | Powered by Last.fm
1. Sliced my hand open on an umbrella at work.
2. Awful back pains that made it hurt to breathe let alone sleep.
3. Banged my upper right thigh on the concrete side of the pool before falling in head first to move a lane rope at work.
I am so sick of getting hurt at work. D:
And now my laptop, my precious Leopold Asus awesome laptop, has died on me. Last night it just turned off without warning and I can't even power the damn thing on. Thank God I have the Geek Squad service plan on that bitch or I'd be screwed. If it isn't working by tomorrow I'll have to throw it at Best Buy and hope for the best.
Surprisingly enough, I'm rather chipper lately. I think it's because I've got a goal in mind. :)
I do feel bad about my mom though. She's really worried about me. She keeps telling me to go home to let our neighbor, the chiropractor, look at me and see about my back but it's just impossible with all that I've got going on. It probably didn't help that I told her that I've been weaning myself off of my Wellbutrin and that I'm completely off it now - she's convinced I should still be taking it. I think the Lexapro will be enough considering most of my emotional problems stem from stress.
Well, I suppose I'll go back to listening to Amelie. I'm having one of those stages where I have to listen to La Noyee at least five times a day to be satisfied. :)
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
excited - Music:La Noyee by Yann Tiersan
I hate being the person that everybody goes to because they know I won't object and can't say no. I told my boss I had plans but she told me I had to find a replacement myself for my shift tomorrow at the shit satellite pool. I'm so angry and upset that people take me for granted and that they use me because they know I'm weak in that sense.
As for the plans tomorrow, we're having some high school friends over for dinner and I just wanted to be there. It's the absolute worst night for it anyway cause I have my lifeguard inservice at 9 and I'm going to go to that cause the alternative is going to the make up at 6:00 AM on Thursday and I don't think I'll be able to make it through the day ... plus I have an exam that day and that would definitely be no good for me. ><
I just don't know what to do. I'm still in physical pain and I feel so stupid and guilty.
...
At least I got my accent wall painted and hung up a few posters today. I might post pictures later - you guys have never seen my entire room. :P
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
morose - Music:TeeVee
...
I'm fine. I swear. I just want to kill several people by stuffing their discarded recyclable materials down their throats and turning their bodies into BIOFUEL for a clean running tank that mauls down fucking assholes that bug me.
...
Anthony Sullivan is a poor replacement for Billy Mayes, sorry. :(
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
enraged - Music:TeeVee
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
weird
Went to classes today. Worked 12 to 2 this afternoon between classes and was forced to scrub the fucking pool again and by the time I was done with astronomy lecture this afternoon, I couldn't do it anymore.
I was supposed to work 6 to 10 tonight but I could feel a panic attack coming on. I felt bad to lie about skipping work so I went ahead and told the GA that I was about to have a panic attack and, thankfully, she understood and said I could have the night off.
I treated myself to a panini at Panera's and then slept for almost three hours when I got back to the apartment. I needed that. I feel like I have been going nonstop since Tuesday morning without any time to just stop and reflect (I was staying at campus between 11 and 13 hours each day).
When I started to think about how tired I was, how lonely I was, how behind I felt on my assignments, and how used I felt by my work (I was scheduled for 27 hours this week, 7 hours over the maximum hours students are supposed to work and 12 hours over how much I told them I could work) I just started to freak out.
Hence why I asked for the night off.
I still have 12 hours to work in the next two days. Both shifts start at 7:00 AM. Saturday's shift ends at 3 and I had plans to go see Inglorious Basterds with a guy that day. I hope I'll be able to carry through with them.
After work Sunday all I'm going to do is sleep.
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
discontent - Music:TeeVee
Yesterday I mostly walked around campus. I also had to work after class for three hours but I ended up spending about four hours at the pool cause I was talking to girl at the front desk who, in addition to sharing the same first name (she even spells it the same way), I have a lot in common with.
I'd love to be more articulate and interesting but it's just easier to zone out to "Free Bird" and close my eyes.
...
Song's over.
Well, ho hum. I finally found out my regular schedule for work. 6 to 10 PM every Wednesday and Friday and then 7:30 AM to 2 every other Saturday. It's not that bad, considering, but I hate the 7:30 shifts - had enough of those this summer, thank you very much.
Also, a friend from high school asked if we could hang out and I said she should come see our apartment this Sunday. I guess I'll have to make dinner or something but I have no idea what to make.
In other news, I'm still not particularly happy but then again I think the only reason why I haven't just broken down and had panic attack after panic attack is because I haven't been bothering to think or worry about my feelings lately. Sounds kind of weird but it's like, when I'm sad, I'll just let myself be sad and not dwell on it. Not because I don't want to dwell on it - I do, cause I'm that sort of miserable person, but because I think I'm too exhausted to do anything else.
I guess I'll write until my Philosophy class starts (working on my vampire novel right now, which is turning out to be pretty interesting) and think about what I'll have for dinner between class and work tonight.
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
creative - Music:R.E.M. - Losing My Religion | Powered by Last.fm
I think it's this sudden tiredness that's come over me suddenly. I probably haven't been getting enough sleep, and I probably am not eating right considering how much stress I'm under, and I probably am not getting enough human interaction to keep myself from going insane.
I keep having awful dreams, mostly concerning high school and having to go to college at the same time and then getting penalized for skipping high school to go to college and it goes on my permanent record. Awful.
And other stuff too, I can't remember many of my dreams lately but I get the distinct feeling that they are not happy dreams. :(
Funny thing is, I'm getting all my work done and I'm off to a really good start but I just don't know how much longer I can keep it up
This odd mix of pessimistic and coffee makes for interesting journalism.
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
COLD CAUSE THE LIBRARY IS DUMB - Music:Jan A.P. Kaczmarek - The Park on Piano | Powered by Last.fm
( IT'S OVER 9 HOURSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS )
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
hyper - Music:CEE ENN ENN
I finally got to meet Cori's friends from Atlanta on Friday and we had a lot of fun. We hung out on the balcony and smoked hookah for about 3 hours and I tried my first cigarette. It was okay, didn't burn as much as I expected it to, but I don't think I'll try it again unless I have a good reason. Hookah, however, will always be my favorite. :)
Also, I finally got written up for being late to work yesterday (I thought I started work at 11 but it was actually 10) and, long story short, it upset me a lot and I was crying all over the place at work. I blame womandhood. :|
Otherwise, I've gotten hooked to Fallout 3. It's a lot of fun. I can't wait until I have my own X Box so I can play in my own room and not have to mooch off of Max's system. :P
Well, that's about it. :D
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
bored - Music:TeeVee
In other news, I bought another parakeet so that Chewy will have some company. They're getting along swimmingly - always cleaning each other and singing and it's only been a day! Chewy's really trying to impress Daisy; I might have to worry about parakeet babies a couple months from now. ^-^
( The birdies )
Also had some great chili today, courtesy of Cori. I helped with the chicken though. So if was a family meal, kinda.
Well, classes start Wednesday so I need to go back to worrying. :D
- Location:United States, Tennessee, Knoxville
- Mood:
cheerful - Music:TeeVee
Warning: excessive swearing, sex, and Mary Sue-ness
“EDWARD. I SWEAR, YOU’RE SO FUCKING REDNECK HOT RIGHT NOW I COULD STRANGLE YOU.” Bella shouted from the passenger seat, her hands clasped upon the inside of the door and the dash board. There was such a party going on in her pants right now.
“SHUT UP BITCH. IMMA CHARGIN MY GENERAL LEE!” Edward quietly screamed as he stomped his foot down upon a pedal – which he imagined looked like Bella’s fugly face - and revved the 19th century general into action.
“We should have NEVER left Washington to steal a Christmas tree from Elvis’s house!” Bella whined, bitched, and moaned in a fuss. Edward, as per usual, tuned the woman out and turned the sparkles up. I need to be as shiny and glittery as possible to pull this jump off, Edward mentally proclaimed with a slight elevation of his eyebrows.
The mad cloud of shiny dust flew out of the open windows of the 1969 Dodge Charger and smacked the windshield of the cop car pursuing the couple. The patrol car swerved around the unpaved country road, sprinkling the air with dirt and gravel as the driver attempted to straighten out and continue the pursuit.
“FOR GREAT VICTORY!” Edward cried as he outstripped the police car and rocketed forward to a small gorge.
“WE’RE NOT GOING TO MAKE IT!” Bella bitched again. Never taking his eyes off the path before them, Edward blindly reached out and back handed her, which promptly turned Bella on. “I CAN’T DECIDE IF I LOVE YOU OR NOT.” Bella screamed in the most indecisive seducing voice she could manage before the General Lee was propelled into the open air off the edge of the gorge. They flew through the air for a moment and they could both tell that they were going to make it. An elated feeling rushed into Bella and she had to proclaim her new profound happiness:
“I CAME!!!!!!”
The General Lee landed on its roof and it - as well as the Christmas tree - exploded upon impact. The front wheels had touched the other side of the gorge but Bella’s statement had disgusted the gorge wall so much that it was like, “Oh ew. That’s a tranny mess” and it backed off so that the car would crash.
Needless to say, Bella perished in the fire and her remains were never found. Edward, being a vampire, came out unscathed though he promptly fell to his knees and reached imploringly up at the sky while rhyming, “Maybe Christmas doesn't come from a store. Maybe Christmas… perhaps… means a little bit more!” As he finished speaking, he felt the dead heart in his chest grow three sizes that very day and a creepy pedobear smile spread across his face!
Dashing and undead, Edward brought himself off the ground and gazed triumphantly into the future. “St. Nick, here I come you motherfucker.” He skipped off into the sunset, leaving a trail of glitter behind him.
This is why I think I should become an author.
- Location:University of Tennessee Knoxville, Hodges Library - Laptop
- Music:In Space by Royksopp
Rules
o1. Get used to some angst. Please. I do that a lot.
o2. Don't type like an illiterate person; if you do, I'll delete your comment and ignore your existence in this world.
o3. You don't have to update very often to be on my friends list. To tell the truth, I quite often take breaks from journaling because of my busy schedule. I normally give people two or three months of hiatus before I ever remove them from my list.
o4. Have a good sense of humor and most importantly, you must be able to take sarcasm. If you can't tell the difference between a sarcastic insult and a real insult then you're not worthy of my presence (the last somewhat insulting statement being sarcastic D:). Hint: I normally type these sarcastic insults in big, huge, annoying capital letters. :D
o5. If I do deny you the honor of bestowing my friendship upon you, don't take it personally please; it's probably not you who I dislike, it's probably just your grammar, which would have to be pretty damn bad to turn me off. I mean, my grammar sucks really bad, too. XD
o6. I cuss a lot, like a sailor. So, there's that.
Warning: I use little things like ":D" and ":3" and stuff, if you haven't noticed yet, and if that annoys you, sorry. But if you bother me about it, I'll bring the eyebrows out on you. D:<
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- Location:Tusculum - Laptop
- Mood:
chipper - Music:Glorious by Muse
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